"What's for your ego and what's for your soul"

I've been trying to get to this entry for a week now.

From an email to Deb last week:

I talked to my boss at the store yesterday [Thursday]. We'll see if she listened. I told her I don't want to work any more Sunday's or Wednesday's and if it means giving up my keys, I'm okay with that. Of course she already had me booked for Sunday but hopefully it will be the last one. I told Mom that if I find myself getting scheduled for more shifts, I'll just quit. It's not fair to the store to limit myself so badly and it's stressing me out to work so much.

So I worked Sunday and I wasn't scheduled to work again until next Thursday (May 1) I did accept a shift this Saturday from 11-3 to cover for someone but at least I don't have to miss church to do it.

I was surprised after my shift on Sunday how free I felt. Almost like being on vacation...which is weird because I'm still working full time at my day job. I'm finding that working two jobs, especially when they interfer with church, is burning me out. I've kind of been ignoring it for awhile but The lyrics from this song really hit me and inspired me to change.

Slow Down
by Kristal Barrett

Running through red lights,
Pushing through a long line,
Trying to stay ahead of it all,
Deadlines hanging over you,
Worrying won’t get you through,
Time isn’t always on your side

What does it mean?
When will it end?

Slow down, it doesn’t have to get done now,
Get out there and enjoy yourself,
Life is only once around,
Slow down, slow down.

If you could just get past this week,
Maybe then you’d get some sleep,
Living life ahead of it’s time,
What does it mean, when will it end?

Slow down, it doesn’t have to get done now,
Get out there and enjoy yourself,
Life is only once around,
Slow down, slow down.

Why are you spinning, so out of control?
What’s for your ego and what’s for your soul?

Slow down, it doesn’t have to get done now,
Get out there and enjoy yourself,
Life is only once around,

Slow down, it doesn’t have to get done now,
Get out there and enjoy yourself,
Life is only once around,
Slow down, slow down.

I'm going to try this new schdule for a month and see how it goes. Like I told Deb and my mom, if it gets to be too much again, I'll quit. Money is nice but it's not worth as much as my mental health. I'll keep you posted.